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I miss....

So end of posting leave had end. New posting awaiting, surgical based posting, again. T_T


Felt like the whole week of holiday was wasted as i dont really get to do whatever things that i like. Imagine that when u want to relax, and when u feel so happy u finally can have your own holiday, but in the end u still need to abide to some restriction, cant do whatever that you really like, and cant express well, and even express, can't really gain understanding, don't really know how to put it in a nice expression so that people wont angry. Dont really feel like it's a proper holiday, don't really have time to myself, owh, i do have time to myself and do allowed to do whatever that i like, but in a compensated way...........ok whatever, holiday had gone, i cant reverse the time.


Just feel like post some photo and blog, about things that i really really misssssssssssssss, since i started working.....

I miss...
My parents, who care and love me more than anyone else.... who raise me up and still love me even though i seldom went back home....

 I won't forgot the feeling when mum called me inform that dad going for Craniotomy, on my birthday 2011, which i decided cancel the birthday celebration and rush back Ipoh to see dad. I always think that my dad is very strong, he underwent 2 laparotomy, 2 craniotomy and yet he still the best daddy i had ever had.

 I miss.....
Playing piano. And music, and serving God in church, and writing melody that doesn't make sense......
  Well, if ever i saw the crystal piano in real life.... *LOVE*

I miss....
Zumba..... OMG do you know how looooooooooong had i not exercise to burn all the FATTTTTTS on my tummy/thigh/arm/face/leg,
No wonder i'm growing fatter and fatter.....T_T T_T T_T I swear i swear i must go for zumba sssooooonnn!


I miss....
Exposing under the son, wearing a sunglasses and enjoying the sunshine.

I miss.....
Travelling to overseas , taking a plane, and enjoy the beauty of the sky..
Ok i think if i m not mistaken this is the view of Medan, Indonesia, taken last year when i went there with mum, and stay in the doctor's clinic house.....lol

I miss....
Friendssss, i miss taking photo/camwhoring with friendsssss...
Ok i miss SSL, she is having so much fun in KK, should had advice everyone, if ever want to enjoy life as a HO, we should go QE hospital in KK. Haha...

I miss....
Dinner with bf n dress pretty and smile truely - not fake smile........
 And the birthday dinner at this super hi-class restaurant, er it's call Fine Dining for whatever sake....
And my Godiva carrot chocolate cake, which no one enjoy the cake except me. And everyone got to pay a huge amount to make me happy. Thanks to my dear bf Nick. Ok i felt bad actually, for wasting his money like this....

I miss......
Shopping, and buying clothes that i really like, and trying nice dress with no hesitancy, not crying cause too fat can't fit the nice dress...

One thing that i damn regret for now is I did not buy this dress......and omg, see i'm damn slim during that time. Cant believe after my anorexic nervosa recover, i gain weight......Hate being fat. Can someone just scold me if u see me eating. T_T

Oh well ignore the anorexic statement, even psychiatrist asking me to see psychologist, so i don't think i'm that serious. I'm fine, just abit stress and have no where to express as i'm just living in a compensated free environment, which even i take one bite of sweet stuff i'll face a "friendly" advice which hurts me sooooo badly.

Till then. Statement make above are mostly exaggerating, i think i'm fine. =_=lll

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